I'm back (I hope) - and things have changed a bit in my life

(image courtesy of http://www.sxc.hu/photo/374431) 



It's been a long time since I used this blog.  I did Trailwalker. I didn't quite finish it. I can't help thinking that my weight (93kg at the time I did the walk) played at least some kind of part in that.

I figured I wanted to have another go at it in 2011. So, about this time last year I started signing myself up for 10ks and half-marathons (walking ones) left right and centre.  I did a lot of them  - one of each a month from January to July.  Then I went for a walking holiday in Cornwall.

Meanwhile, I also figured I'd work on trying to lose some weight so that when I DID go back to Trailwalker in 2011, I didn't have the same disadvantage I'd had in 2009.  And I lost some. Around 8 or so kilos from September 2009 to September 2010 - I was 84.5 when I weighed myself again in mid-September. Which I guess isn't bad.  Now it looks like Trailwalker 2011 won't be happening, which has taken away my practical reason for wanting to drop the weight.

I want to get my weight further down (I was aiming fro somewhere between 70-75kg, on the basis that 70 is the lowest I know my body can healthily be, and I don't actually know if that's too low for who I am now, so I'm giving myself permission to stop before then if that seems right).  Now I'm left with the question: if I'm not losing weight for Trailwalker, why DO I want to lose it?  Can I find a reason that's not about fitting into a specific size, or hitting a specific number on the scale - one that won't wake my "sleeping beast in the dark". That's part of what I want to use this blog to explore.

We'll see where things go from here...